But what am I really giving thanks for this year? My mental health. I have talked to a few people about this over the last few years, but not everyone knows. But I have no shame in talking about it now. Especially since I have learned to give thanks for what happened.
You see, a few years back, I was as low as I have ever been in life. In a supremely dark place. My truck was in the shop, and ended up being there for a long long time. My step dad had major heart issues, and ended up at Vandy. I was alone in Thanksgiving. And apart from bumming rides to church, I spent the better part of 3 months alone. That's a long time with no where to go and nothing to do. And I got low. Very low. Bottom of the barrel low. I will spare you the terrible details, but it was bad. I will say that there was good in there too , but it was few and far between. I'm honestly still surprised I ever came out of it. But I did. And the thanks goes to God.
You see, I learned some things during that that I needed to learn. Like patience. That was a big lesson. And I learned that I had to stop being afraid to ask people for help. Because if you don't ask, you can't get it. And I learned that a good strong church family is maybe the best gift that God has ever given me.
So yes, I have been down. And at times I still fight that battle over. But it's never as bad as it was in the past, because I have learned that by leaning on the everlasting arms, I can get through anything. So this year I am thankful for what God has done for me over the last few years. And I cannot wait to see what happens in the future. Like it says in 1st Thessalonians 5:18, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you. (1 Thessalonians 5:18 ESV)What are you thankful for?
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